Reflecting. Coming soon!!

So this past Saturday was Yom Kippur, a day of quiet reflection and atonement. For me it was a quiet day of fasting at home as I thought about the events of the past year. I'm still organizing my thoughts on this. I went from thinking about memories to being pissed off about them. I realized that the things my ex friends accused me of doing were exactly the things that they did except I didn't run off to spread more gossip. I also realized that the worst one of all told me things that were so confidential it could ruin lives.

I'm just trying to figure out how I feel like writing this.

Don't worry, I'd never repeat things that could actually do harm or ruin friendships. I'm not a complete asshole.

Either way it should be a good one.

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Steve Jobs' 2005 Stanford Commencement Address

The world lost a visionary yesterday. The loss of Steve Jobs traveled quickly yesterday afternoon, mostly on devices he created. All over the world people mourned the death of someone they never met. There was no negativity, only pure feelings of love and sadness as people quoted the words of inspiration that made them all want to be better people. Steve Jobs was fearless in his determination to learn new things. To move on from a bad situation and turn it into an opportunity. It would seem that he had the midas touch; everything he touched turn to gold. That was because he believed in himself and he wasn't afraid to fail.

This speech has some of the best words to live by I have ever heard. Watching it yesterday brought tears to my eyes, knowing that this amazing spirit is no longer with us. I hope we all follow his example and strive for the true meaning of our lives.

RIP Steve, you were a true American hero.

Written on your MacBook Pro.

"Born Alone"

The Whole Love is out today. Immediately stop what you're doing and go to Spotify to listen!! Then go to Amazon and download it, or go to a record store if they still exist. Just please don't buy it from iTunes. They suck.

Thanks!

Foo Fighters - Keepin it Clean in KC

Foo Fighters Message To Westboro: "Keep It Clean"

Look what Dave (I so wish he was my new boy bestie) Grohl and the band came up for those assholes at Westboro. It's so nice to see someone fighting back. I do love their new video Hot Buns but you'll have to google that, it's not for everyone, but I sure loved it!!

KANSAS CITY, Mo. -- Rock band Foo Fighters had a message to the members of the controversial Westboro Baptist Church during one of their Kansas City protests: "Keep it clean."

Members of the band dressed up in costume and surprised members of the church, who were in Kansas City to protest the Foo Fighters show Friday night in Kansas City.

The band performed one of their songs, "Keep It Clean," as a message of tolerance to Westboro Baptist Church members. The performance took place on the trailer of a truck.

In an ironic twist, it appeared one of the members of the church said they enjoyed the song after the performance was over.

Click below to watch the video. Just a note of caution: some might find some of the language and content in the video inappropriate.


Read more: http://www.kmbc.com/entertainment/29240329/detail.html#ixzz1YoEK2KJc

Do you remember??

September by Earth, Wind and Fire

The 21st night of September. Of course I do, nine years ago today I took a short stroll with my dad and ended up with a new last name. For the story on how I met D please check here.

I wish all happy endings only required such short walks. D and I are in a really great place now but it took miles and miles of trying to meet back up after getting lost. Sure we said "in good times and bad" but really who means that? I know I didn't at the time. In fact I didn't even consider it. I got pregnant pretty quickly so we went right from newlywed status to expecting parents. The dust never got a chance to settle which probably explains the tornado that we were hit with a few years later.

I'm not going to bring up the issues we've had, I'm just going to say that we took the road less traveled. We did the work, put in the effort and did what we could to make things better. Was it easy? Oh hell no. Did we give up? Sometimes. Were we proud of how we acted? Probably not, but we managed to get back on track, not just for K but for each other.

I was going to write a mushy gushy lovey thing but I like this better. I have no idea how cohesive it is since K is doing all she can to make noise but I think I got my point across.

Marriage is hard, if it were easy everyone would be really good at it. Divorce lawyers would spend all day playing Angry Birds and therapists would fall asleep on couches. There are a lot of married people out there doing what they are supposed to do for whatever the reason, that wasn't working for us. We wanted to be that couple that makes it look easy even when it isn't. I believe we are well on our way and that makes me happy. Life is a work in progress, just like marriage, the key is to always be moving forward, even if it's not at the same pace.

Happy anniversary D, even though I take a practical approach to all things including emotions (thanks OCD) I love you with all of my heart, body and soul.

Match Point

So I completed my in home swab test for Be The Match and now I just wait. I guess. When I explained to K what I was doing she was fascinated. She asked what happens if I am ever found to be a match. After I explained the lengthy process she asked me why I would go through all that for someone I don't know. She knows I donate blood and platelets but this process is intense and a lot more involved. When I explained to her that I can save someones life by being inconvenienced for a few weeks she wanted in. I told her she would have to wait. Then she asked if she can donate blood "Not a lot, just a little, for a kid" that melted my heart. She might be self centered sometimes but that girl has a heart of gold.

I felt really good putting my cells in the mail. I also felt a little scared, knowing that the process can be painful, nothing that I can't handle though. I'm trying to live a positive life and things like this really help with that. It also shows others how they can impact the world without making a fuss.

There are heroes all around us, I wish they all could be recognized.

My new motto!

Saw this yesterday and loved it. It's a good rule to have:

I can be strong willed and outspoken. I can even be a bit hard to handle - but if you can't handle me at my worst then you don't deserve me at my best.