Too many mental tabs open today.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

"Born Alone"

The Whole Love is out today. Immediately stop what you're doing and go to Spotify to listen!! Then go to Amazon and download it, or go to a record store if they still exist. Just please don't buy it from iTunes. They suck.


Friday, September 23, 2011

Foo Fighters - Keepin it Clean in KC

Foo Fighters Message To Westboro: "Keep It Clean"

Look what Dave (I so wish he was my new boy bestie) Grohl and the band came up for those assholes at Westboro. It's so nice to see someone fighting back. I do love their new video Hot Buns but you'll have to google that, it's not for everyone, but I sure loved it!!

KANSAS CITY, Mo. -- Rock band Foo Fighters had a message to the members of the controversial Westboro Baptist Church during one of their Kansas City protests: "Keep it clean."

Members of the band dressed up in costume and surprised members of the church, who were in Kansas City to protest the Foo Fighters show Friday night in Kansas City.

The band performed one of their songs, "Keep It Clean," as a message of tolerance to Westboro Baptist Church members. The performance took place on the trailer of a truck.

In an ironic twist, it appeared one of the members of the church said they enjoyed the song after the performance was over.

Click below to watch the video. Just a note of caution: some might find some of the language and content in the video inappropriate.

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Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Do you remember??

September by Earth, Wind and Fire

The 21st night of September. Of course I do, nine years ago today I took a short stroll with my dad and ended up with a new last name. For the story on how I met D please check here.

I wish all happy endings only required such short walks. D and I are in a really great place now but it took miles and miles of trying to meet back up after getting lost. Sure we said "in good times and bad" but really who means that? I know I didn't at the time. In fact I didn't even consider it. I got pregnant pretty quickly so we went right from newlywed status to expecting parents. The dust never got a chance to settle which probably explains the tornado that we were hit with a few years later.

I'm not going to bring up the issues we've had, I'm just going to say that we took the road less traveled. We did the work, put in the effort and did what we could to make things better. Was it easy? Oh hell no. Did we give up? Sometimes. Were we proud of how we acted? Probably not, but we managed to get back on track, not just for K but for each other.

I was going to write a mushy gushy lovey thing but I like this better. I have no idea how cohesive it is since K is doing all she can to make noise but I think I got my point across.

Marriage is hard, if it were easy everyone would be really good at it. Divorce lawyers would spend all day playing Angry Birds and therapists would fall asleep on couches. There are a lot of married people out there doing what they are supposed to do for whatever the reason, that wasn't working for us. We wanted to be that couple that makes it look easy even when it isn't. I believe we are well on our way and that makes me happy. Life is a work in progress, just like marriage, the key is to always be moving forward, even if it's not at the same pace.

Happy anniversary D, even though I take a practical approach to all things including emotions (thanks OCD) I love you with all of my heart, body and soul.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Match Point

So I completed my in home swab test for Be The Match and now I just wait. I guess. When I explained to K what I was doing she was fascinated. She asked what happens if I am ever found to be a match. After I explained the lengthy process she asked me why I would go through all that for someone I don't know. She knows I donate blood and platelets but this process is intense and a lot more involved. When I explained to her that I can save someones life by being inconvenienced for a few weeks she wanted in. I told her she would have to wait. Then she asked if she can donate blood "Not a lot, just a little, for a kid" that melted my heart. She might be self centered sometimes but that girl has a heart of gold.

I felt really good putting my cells in the mail. I also felt a little scared, knowing that the process can be painful, nothing that I can't handle though. I'm trying to live a positive life and things like this really help with that. It also shows others how they can impact the world without making a fuss.

There are heroes all around us, I wish they all could be recognized.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

My new motto!

Saw this yesterday and loved it. It's a good rule to have:

I can be strong willed and outspoken. I can even be a bit hard to handle - but if you can't handle me at my worst then you don't deserve me at my best.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Terrible Love, terriffic night!

The National - Terrible Love (Alternate Version)

I love this song from the National and Sunday night D, K and I were lucky to join some friends to see them live. K was so excited because she's been asking to go to the Hollywood Bowl for a while. I was excited because I love this band and the Bowl is an awesome venue, especially on a perfect September evening. We packed our bag with wine and snacks and met our friends (who also had wine and some of the most amazing caprese ever!).

It was so much fun, we've spend a lot of time with these friends this summer and weren't happy about it ending. The kids get along, K is older than the little boy but she likes to feel like she's a mentor. Plus he follows her around like a puppy and it's adorable!! It's such a relief to have FWD or friends without drama. Six adults with no agenda, simply enjoying each others company. I guess that's why this summer was so great and what made it so difficult to see it end.

Previous summers have been fun but the drama always hung around around like the morning fog in Santa Monica. Even though it didn't always get in the way it was always there. I believe when things are good they should feel effortless. I'm not saying that there should never be a problem, that's not realistic, but the general atmosphere should be positive. Of course sometimes that can have the pizza effect: You love pizza (who doesn't) and eat it religiously, then someone takes you to the best pizza place ever (like Vito's in West Hollywood) all of a sudden you realize that you've been eating bad pizza and can only go to Vito's from now on. You never realized how good things can be until you find that perfect pizza or in our case friends.

Our night at the bowl was a nice way to close out the summer. Great music, fabulous friends, delicious food and copious amounts of wine. The kids were lulled to sleep by the music and the nice warm breeze that caressed the venue. A perfect drama free evening.

Even the parking was easy.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Be the match!

Take the First Step to Become a Bone Marrow Donor (full length)

Inspired by Hudson and Abella (from the video I posted the other day) I just registered to be a bone marrow donor. The registration process is quick and painless and even though the donation process is not, it pales in comparison with whatever the recipient will have gone through.

They may call in a week, a month or even ten years but when they do I will be happy to help anyone fight the enemy that is cancer.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Childhood Cancer Awareness Month

Hudson and Abella, Siblings fighting Cancer

Please pass on this video. September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month and we need to do all we can to kick cancer in the ass and be rid of it forever. So often we complain about the banalities of life when kids like Hudson and Arabella are fighting like hell for that very thing. We are all so fortunate and should not take any of it for granted. I often get lost in the minutia of life and watching these brave kids quickly reminds me of all that I have. I often donate blood and platelets (when I am able) at Children's Hospital where I always see the happy and brave little faces of some of the sickest kids in the world. We need to do all we can for these little heros, they should spend their days playing instead of fighting a disease they should not have.

The White House

Office of the Press Secretary
For Immediate Release
September 01, 2011
Proclamation for Release - National Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, 2011

Across America, thousands of courageous children fight pediatric cancer each year, facing life‑threatening battles that would challenge men and women of any age. They are cared for by loving families, friends, and communities who band together to support children in times of great need. From raising money for research and hospital stays to offering compassionate assistance to families who have lost loved ones, Americans are working every day to combat childhood cancer.

Today, research advances have made pediatric cancer more treatable than ever before. The five‑year survival rate for young patients has risen to 80 percent in the past half century, but serious challenges remain. Children who survive cancer frequently struggle with significant complications later in life and researchers are working to develop treatments specifically for pediatric cancer. We still know too little about the causes in young people, and cancer remains the leading cause of death by disease for children in America under the age of 15.

As we work to better understand and combat these destructive diseases, my Administration is working to lift some of the burden on families affected by them. Because of the Affordable Care Act, insurance companies can no longer deny insurance to children because of pre‑existing conditions, meaning that children who are currently suffering from or have survived cancer must be covered. Insurance companies are also banned from rejecting insurance for children participating in clinical studies, in which the vast majority of children with cancer take part. And the Affordable Care Act prohibits insurance companies from imposing lifetime dollar limits on health benefits ‑‑ freeing cancer patients and their families from worry of long‑term treatment affordability. Meanwhile, the National Cancer Institute continues to conduct and fund research on the causes of these diseases, linking research on genetics and adult cancers to more effective treatments for children.

Too many children and their families have faced the harmful effects of cancer. In memory of the young lives taken from us far too soon, and in honor of the families who stood beside them, we continue to support researchers, doctors, and advocates working to improve treatments, find cures, and reach a tomorrow where all our children can lead full and healthy lives.

NOW, THEREFORE, I, BARACK OBAMA, President of the United States of America, by virtue of the authority vested in me by the Constitution and the laws of the United States, do hereby proclaim September 2011 as National Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. I also encourage all Americans to join me in reaffirming our commitment to fighting childhood cancer.

IN WITNESS WHEREOF, I have hereunto set my hand this first day of September, in the year of our Lord two thousand eleven, and of the Independence of the United States of America the two hundred and thirty-sixth.


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Cruel (end of) Summer

This day never gets easier. I absolutely hate the first day of school. It starts around the beginning of August, I count down the days and start getting depressed. Then I start to worry about how her new teacher will deal with her "work." Yesterday we had a playdate with her bestie from school. It was so great to hang with this family, we both missed them this summer. Once the girls saw each other they forgot that it had been months. In the afternoon we walked down to the school to check out the class assignments. To avoid a long detailed story of all the drama that followed here's a recap:

They were not in the same class (after being together for three years)
She didn't get the teacher she wanted (although to be fair, he was new and I think the only reason she wanted him was well, because he is a him and he has a very funny name)
The bully she cannot stand is in her class again

She lost it and broke down begging me to homeschool. I did what any parent would do and took her out for ice cream. Then I gave her a not very PC pep talk and let her know I have her back. No matter what.

When we came home and really looked at the class list she saw there was actually many friends in her class. She went to sleep relieved and woke up excited. She was dressed before I even had my coffee and requested a pretty hairstyle. When we got to the yard she saw all her old friends (who were all in the other class) and seemed kind of sad, then she started to see her new class assemble and the smile returned. When she saw the girls in her new class she was all smiles again (and I have the picture to prove it!)

The rest was a blur. A mass of kids and parents marching into the new year. When it was all over I walked out of her classroom and exhaled. Her teacher is really sweet, her class is actually very different than it had been the previous years. It seems a lot more mellow. I don't want to come across as elitist but this years class seems to be made up of the kids that are better academically. Except for the bully but I will blame that on Bush. She is a perfect example of why we need to trash the "No child left behind" BS. Sorry, but some kids need to be left.

So as usual, I sit here. Missing the noise that drives me nuts in the summer. Missing my girl that does the same. I will think about all the things I can do during the year when really the year is just a countdown until next summer.

I have so much support from D and my wonderful friends that this year I am actually OK. The emails, calls and texts really help. I will take up all offers for lunch and various activities this year, just like we did this summer. I will continue to miss K like crazy but I will not obsess. I get lots of time with her. I will be early today (OK, every day)to pick her up though. I can't help that.

I'll also get to spend the day with her tomorrow. She's working. I guess I need to have that conversation a little sooner this year.

I hope you all have a fabulous school year!!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Blast the past

The Smashing Pumpkins - Ava Adore

Speaking of songs, I heard a Pumpkins song today and it reminded me of how much I loved this album when it came out. I played this song over and over. When they came around for the Adore Tour I went with Started Husband. It was a strange concert, they basically just played the whole album. It was a strange night, I'm pretty sure I was drunk but I remember getting lost in the music. In fact after the concert I ran into friends (which I do not remember) and the next day they said I was almost in a trance.

Anyhow, it was a cool night and I wanted to hear this so I thought I'd share.


Thursday, September 1, 2011

Wilco will love you baby

So I planned on writing a whole thing about how it sucks when songs you used to love remind you of people you now hate. I was in the car with K earlier and she requested Wilco, a band I've loved for years. I put on an old album and she asked for the newest one so she could sing along. OK, I love every song on this album and play it often even though it reminds me of friends I no longer wish to remember. I love to share my music and shared this band often.

While K and I sang the words to all the songs I realized that if music evokes a happy memory keep it. Even though I had a truly unhappy childhood there were some moments of joy. Every now and then I'll hear a song from that time and smile. I choose the tone of my mood. I can play Wilco and think of a fun summer rather than a friendship gone bad.

Besides I just made a new memory, listening to this song will now remind me of driving along PCH on a beautiful summer afternoon.

Enjoy the song, it's a good one.

On a side note:

If you happen to be one of those friends please stop reading this. Delete the link and move on.

Stalking and lurking is unhealthy.